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| tiresome work is consuming me, bit by bit. i cant wait till this is all over. i mean seriously. but well then again im going to befit fro all this arent i?
im a excited mood!!!! and happy too.:D just ate some pretty awesome dinner today. and it was quite early around 4-5 actually im pretty amazed by how long ive held up actually:D
tuesdays.. tuesdays.. killer:( DANCE TOMORROW:D yayyyyy:D hahha kkk imma go.
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| so many of my friends are getting sick. its extremely depressing. first it was jamal, then trish, now yungseng. whos next!? hmmmm
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ive been self rejoicing about my 2 A grades and my passing of chemistry and econs lately.i know i should be happy, however something inside me never seems to fit. although i know ive tried hard, somehow i know i could have at least done better. yes. "it is so demoralizing" as one of my friends have said. just the hope of ,hmmmm say, feeling smart, at the very least escapes me. Neither do i get much support.why does it feel like i only have myself to fall back on sometimes. and i know that isnt true. but maybe its that constant fear, well more of question, that regularly repeats itself in my head. : so, are you good enough?
this question will always be there, be it in whatever educational/work industry i go to, its gonna be there. it is a question which will beleaguer and antagonize me until my final breath. something i have no control of in fact. a burden i must carry until my dying day. (pstchhh, i must quit with all this talk about death.) im exhausted. and probably suffering from fatigue, just slightly oblivious to it as i now feel numb (now as in at the moment, yes this VERY moment). maybe this is my new found friend,.... frienemy? friend called stress. (say hi stress! "HI!!!!" ok that was retarded=.=) i extrapolate that i do not work well under pressure. scratch that, i cant even win a game under pressure (talking about typing maniac guys). but then again, who does? stress is my kryptonite. it will break me. it has.
however, it helps that my friends in year5 are extremely supportive of me, givng me advise almost everytime the see me. i really appreciate that. thank you verrrry much
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is this supposed to be happening to me? well girls? one day i feel my world is AWESOME, happy and undisturbed. The next, i feel very much.... DISTURBED. i am terribly apologetic that whoever reads this has to read a post about questions and stress. probably the last thing which you wanna read is about that. my week has been, how you say, full of surprises. the surprise of who you can rely on, or who you cant, grades, new found stress, and new found annoyances. (this basically sums up what i have learnt this past, say 1-3 weeks)
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on the up side, im going for dance tomorrow. Thank God. my "power"outlet is back again. just the time when i need it. i must let out some steam and have fun. i miss it though. and well i miss dance LAST year. when we were at our peak. it was relaxation to me. and probably still is, just without such, er... enthusiasm? oh well!! what to do what to dooo.
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oh if CHEE YUNG SENG READS THIS: you missed out today:( we had losta fun with yuhern! hahahahah will explain to you when i give you a call. missin ya!!! hope you get well soon!!
i really hope my friends get better. i miss trish SO MUCH. ah yes, not to forget jamal. yes yes him too :D
xoxo sarah belle
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| so, the last post was. pretty much, not very informative. but wells heres one that isnt.
the last few days was chock-full with (you can imagine) books, papers, pens, pencils.. the usual. I'm actually beginning to enjoy the life of prelims and exams. Like, on the days which i do not need to go to school early because my exam is in the afternoon, i can come at like 10 ish, and get some snacks from holland. and after my exam, which is usually about, say.... latest 3? i get to go HOME! yeahhhh:D sounds good aye? oh wells its going to be over in a week? awww. well my stress levels will go higher and AHH! i cannot think of it anymore:( oh the days where it was simple and easy. i miss them greatly HAH! but yes, as i said in a previous post. ITS ALMOST OVER! its just half a year more. less than that in fact. im glad that I dont need to wait another year or two for this. Its something i need to do right?:D so let this be the one and only time i do do it. no retakes, no repeats. like my daddy always ways "make sure you do it once and do it right".
xoxo sarah belle
okay i officially do NOT like chili crab. sorry. i just dont. i love crab. but not when it has chili gravy all over it. it smells wonderful and tastes great with the man tou. but no. not with the crab. I'll pass. | | |
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And like the sun you
Brighten the day, you brighten my day, yeah
I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie
Said I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie
You're so beautiful
and yes, my dear you are. i mean honestly you are. he doesnt need to tell you that. you need to know you are..I wish you would cheer up. for this once. I know you've been in and outta this so many times. but i wish you would really HONESTLY be happy for once. i know you just hanging out with your friends and laughing, making fun of us, is not when your truly happy. and i just wish you were! like permanently. It sucks that we have what, less than 6 months to see each other on a daily basis. now that youre leaving. for sure. im selfish. i dont want you to go! hahah my dear! youre one of the very people i go to when trouble, or... more like have fear. well same thing. and ah, its going to be so different without you! girl, like i've always said, im just a phone call away. and if i dont pick up, i'll call back (sorry i was asleep heheh). cheer up babycakes. cause you know. a smile is always a better than a frown. cause frowns give you wrinkles. :D okay im getting goofy. i know you will chose what is right for you! be it in your studies or not. whatever it is, im backing you up:D
usted no necesita sentir esta manera. nunca. te amo
xoxo, sarah
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